This is a very rough draft of something I wrote a long time ago. I was in a dark space at the time. I didn’t complete it. I didn’t like how it was unfolding. So I never posted it until recently (A few years later, now in Sept. 2021)
The reason is, I wrote another poem called “Just Because”. I managed to turn darkness into light. All I had to do was find the switch.
I know I’ll have to come back and finish what I started. Then I can delete this as I should. Why must I haunt my “Self”. I didn’t even know that was possible.
Digest; In-jest
Just because I cry doesn’t mean I’m broken
Just because I’m broke doesn’t mean I have nothing to give
Just because I’m alone, doesn’t mean I’m devoid of love and being loving
Just because I’ve been shamed doesn’t mean I should feel ashamed
Just because I am old, doesn’t mean I don’t know how to live
Just because I yearn to laugh doesn’t mean I’m self-indulgent
Just because I fantasize about revenge doesn’t mean I’m vengeful
Just because there’s no respite doesn’t mean I will not find refuge
Just because I’m different doesn’t make me special
Just because I’m special doesn’t make me unique
Just because I’m mired w/in my past doesn’t mean I cannot see my future
Just because I am so exhausted doesn’t mean that I am far too weak
Just because time has made me weary and my spirit can no longer speak doesn’t mean that life is dreary I will once again begin to seek
Just because I’m telling doesn’t mean there’s something to show
Just because I am “A Mystic” doesn’t mean I have to glow
Just because I reason doesn’t mean I am critical
Just because I can reason doesn’t mean I am ‘Enlightened”
Just because I am optimistic doesn’t mean I am trusting
Just because I’m complex doesn’t mean I don’t wish to be understood
Just because I’m terrified doesn’t mean I will not act
Digest; In-rest
Just because you’re gone doesn’t mean you’ve left
Just because you’ve left doesn’t mean I will not give chase
Just because you still exist doesn’t mean you own my thoughts
Just because you have things to show doesn’t mean you must claim and go
Just because you were once so giving doesn’t mean you had a heart
Just because you love doesn’t mean you know of love
Just because you remember doesn’t mean I won’t forget
Just because you choose to forget doesn’t mean I wish to serve your memory
Just because you’re still becoming doesn’t mean you’ll always be recognized
Just because you’re “in-tune” doesn’t mean you must “atone”
Just because you are loyal doesn’t mean I should or could always be
Just because you are an illusion doesn’t mean I am delusional
Just because you chose him, her and them over me doesn’t mean I don’t exist
Digest; @-best
Just because we were once like them doesn’t mean we became them
Just because we were with them doesn’t mean we were one of them
Just because we wanted to be like them doesn’t mean we were followers
Just because they followed us doesn’t mean we chose to lead
Just because we were once one doesn’t mean we were never meant to unravel
Just because together we were formidable doesn’t mean we were not fragile
Just because it was “Just Because” doesn’t mean it was meant to be and that’s just because we loved as one and that’s all we ever needed to really see.