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Thursday / November 18th / 2021

 

I almost killed someone today, and for no good reason.

Is there ever a good reason?

No, not really.

What about in self-defense? What if you are trying to thwart off an enemy? What if, and what if, and how about what if…?

No.

How about if we need to sacrifice just one, maybe two, okay — say three others, whomever they might be, for the greater good?

No.

Of course, it’s okay to kill under the guidelines set forth in Sun-Tsu, isn’t it?

You mean if it’s something you must have to survive, such as water or clean air; or again, in self-defense; or if victory is a foregone conclusion? No, it is not.

It’s okay to kill or die for a cause you truly believe in?

No.

It must be okay to kill or die for a cause that others believe in, and especially if they order you to do so!

No, you are incorrect

What about those who are so very different from you and I. Their skin is of a different color. They’re uncultured. They are rude and ruthless. Their hearts are so far removed from ours.

No.

And what about those religious zealots? Surely many, if not most, deserve to be killed, don’t they?

No

Okay then, what if you’re just pissed off? Who cares if you’re an ignoramus, psycho-path, have D.I.D., posttraumatic stress syndrome; or you’re an idealogue, a narcissist, have a low I.Q. — If anyone of the aforementioned group came along and killed a close friend or family member. YOU HAVE THE RIGHT — YOU must KILL THEM(?)(!)(.)

If you are you asking, demanding, or making a statement of fact, the answer is and always should be, No!

What about psychology, philosophy, or even the within the animal and plant kingdoms, or say the natural laws that are all around us? Creatures kill, creatures consume and creatures often celebrate life through killing. So is this okay?

No.

With whom am I speaking? You’re certainly are not God!

You’re correct.

Then who are you?

I am the one you want to be

You make me want to kill you. I don’t have time for this. Not right now anyway… Not when my mind is so preoccupied. I’m broke. They have diagnosed me with cancer. Someone has falsely accused me of not only a crime I didn’t commit; but for a crime that never happened. This is beyond belief…

As I sit in my car at 5:00am, I’m so cold, my windshield keeps fogging up. I am hungry. I really could use that bagel and coffee right now.

Okay traffic signal, I need to make my left; now stay green, stay green—man I need better glasses—next week; I need to remember to pick some up…

What’s that? A dog? It’s running across my path, or rather its path in the crosswalk. What’s that? An extended cable leach?

Can’t they see I’m trying to turn left? They…? Oh S**T, get out of my way!

Don’t they know I’m impaired? I cannot see. That I’ve never been able to see? Why is that, you ask?

Because I chose not to see!

When I look in the mirror, I believe I’m looking at myself? I have a high level of self-awareness. Does the image see me?

Could I be a fool? Could I be the image in the mirror — looking and believing I’m looking at my image, in a mirror?

If so, am I not justified and even required to shatter the mirror? Pick up a piece of shard glass and slit my throat? Let’s see, or maybe not.

 

 

Digest

Digest 2

This is a very rough draft of something I wrote a long time ago. I was in a dark space at the time. I didn’t complete it.  I didn’t like how it was unfolding. So I never posted it until recently (A few years later, now in Sept. 2021)

The reason is, I wrote another poem called “Just Because”. I managed to turn darkness into light. All I had to do was find the switch.

I know I’ll have to come back and finish what I started. Then I can delete this as I should. Why must I haunt my “Self”. I didn’t even know that was possible.

Digest; In-jest

Just because I cry doesn’t mean I’m broken

Just because I’m broke doesn’t mean I have nothing to give

Just because I’m alone, doesn’t mean I’m devoid of love and being loving

Just because I’ve been shamed doesn’t mean I should feel ashamed

Just because I am old, doesn’t mean I don’t know how to live

Just because I yearn to laugh doesn’t mean I’m self-indulgent

Just because I fantasize about revenge doesn’t mean I’m vengeful

Just because there’s no respite doesn’t mean I will not find refuge

Just because I’m different doesn’t make me special

Just because I’m special doesn’t make me  unique

Just because I’m mired w/in my past doesn’t mean I cannot see my future

Just because I am so exhausted doesn’t mean that I am far too weak

Just because time has made me weary and my spirit can no longer speak doesn’t mean that life is dreary I will once again begin to seek

Just because I’m telling doesn’t mean there’s something to show

Just because I am “A Mystic” doesn’t mean  I have to glow

Just because I reason doesn’t mean I am critical

Just because I can reason doesn’t mean I am ‘Enlightened”

Just because I am optimistic doesn’t mean I am trusting

Just because I’m complex doesn’t mean I don’t wish to be understood

Just because I’m terrified doesn’t mean I will not act

 

 

 

Digest; In-rest

Just because you’re gone doesn’t mean you’ve left

Just because you’ve left doesn’t mean I will not give chase

Just because you still exist doesn’t mean you own my thoughts

Just because you have things to show doesn’t mean you must claim and go

Just because you were once so giving doesn’t mean you had a heart

Just because you love doesn’t mean you know of love

Just because you remember doesn’t mean I won’t forget

Just because you choose to forget doesn’t mean I wish to serve your memory

Just because you’re still becoming doesn’t mean you’ll always be recognized

Just because you’re “in-tune” doesn’t mean you must “atone”

Just because you are loyal doesn’t mean I should or could always be

Just because you are an illusion doesn’t mean I am delusional

Just because you chose him, her and them over me doesn’t mean I don’t exist

 

 

 

Digest; @-best

Just because we were once like them doesn’t mean we became them

Just because we were with them doesn’t mean we were one of them

Just because we wanted to be like them doesn’t mean we were followers

Just because they followed us doesn’t mean we chose to lead

Just because we were once one doesn’t mean we were never meant to unravel

Just because together we were formidable doesn’t mean we were not fragile

Just because it was “Just Because” doesn’t mean it was meant to be and that’s just because we loved as one and that’s all we ever needed to really see.

 

…just put a fork in it!

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You stop, look down, you place a toehold underneath a blanket of nothingness; you become the fork. You see, feel, hear and touch with your imagination. As you genuflect, you give pause, realizing, that you’ve stopped “Becoming”.

As others pass, like you, they’ve chosen to comply, to become complicit! The specialists go left, the innovators move to their right. It’s where both paths meet, that you’ll find your now soiled cloak, you use it to provide full cover, as you don’t want to be seen; it’s of no matter, that you have been shamed by an injustice.

Invocation without “Benediction” is a must; as reasoning, without seasoning, leaves lust. Can one step ever be considered a new path? Can what’s cliche’, once again, become novel? What gives rise to wisdom? Don’t ask me, just put a fork in it!

A State of Mime

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One’s “State of Perception” is the ally of the “Enemy of the State”. The purity of truth is toxic for both the individual and the state. Complex algorithms provide sustenance for the Specialist who is the “Head of State”.

As this creature and his minions lie in wait, upon their feathered beds of hypocrisy, they prepare to strike; their goal is to eradicate all enemies of the state. First, they will rid their world of the wise; then the learned, and finally, the willing.

It’s not where or when the state ends, that allows for freedom to begin. Though it is where freedom ends, that you will find a sentry, who with his gun, and his disarming smile, welcomes you as an ally to his newly minted borderless “State of Perception”.

Taboo

Taboo

Tradition

     Faith Refracted

Segregated beauty

     Emancipated

Never to(o)

     Forever be

Revere

     Irreverent

 

Tradition

     Segregated beauty

Never to(o)

     Revere

 

Faith refracted

     Emancipated

Forever be

     Irreverent 

 

 

Segregated beauty

     Forever be

          Tradition

     

Emancipated

     Irreverent

Never to(o)

     Faith refracted

 

Forever be

     Emancipated

Revere

     Forever be

Irreverent

    Taboo